I've Decided to Move on From Wanting to Get Married, This *Was* the Wedding Plan

I didn't want to get married when I was a little girl. I didn't want to get married until I was 19 and I realized how lonely life would be without a partner. I couldn't fathom myself able to get through life without someone to support me, so I made it my mission to find the perfect person. With my 27th birthday looming and my 2 + year relationship in the gutter because he "wanted to marry me" yet "had no plans to propose", I think it's safe to say that I'm not going to get the life I set out to have. That's okay because I'm adaptable. I'm often told that my thinking on things like this is rigid, but I disagree. I believe marriage to be a sacred union, I believe having children the greatest Allah (SWT) responsibility has bestowed open us, and I don't think starting a family is anything to be all loosey goosey about. I'm often told that I'll change my mind when I get older or that I have plenty of time, but that's just what people who haven't properly researched IVF say. Besides, all this time not having a husband has made me realize that I'm not as incapable of doing things for myself as I thought. I still don't like it, I am often suicidal, and I have a meltdown every 6 months or so, but I'm doing it. I've decided to just commit to being the cool rich aunt that's married to her art. YES! I did have really great wedding plans though, so I'm sharing them with you today, in celebration!

The Courthouse

My fantasy is a courthouse wedding because I've developed so much dread at the thought of having to spend the day about committing to my husband worrying about making guests happy. I've been an entertainer my whole life, I want my wedding to be about us and us alone. Idk how this works with the Imam. Would have worked that out later.

The Veil

I feel like courthouse wedding doesn't have to mean not dressing up. I'd hire a photographer and videographer to capture it all for our loved ones. I love what the veil symbolizes.

The Gown

I think I actually wouldn't want our parents to be there, but if he disagrees I'm not that 10 toes down on that. I feel a lot of pressure to please my parents, so I think it would be really liberating to get married outside of their gaze. However, I don't know if I'd regret that.

The Ring

I like this one, but I would have it just a little thicker and I'd actually like it with a brown diamond or green sapphire.

My Updo

I love updos. I'd want my hair off my neck and out of my face, so I wouldn't have to bother with it.

Light dinner with the witnesses at Le Chalet. Fries, martinis, mussles, and mayo please ! More pictures, but make it snappy because we have to catch our flight!

Nile Cruise Honeymoon!

I'd also want to go to a place of his choosing, but the Nile Cruise is just so magic. We saved ourselves tens of thousands not having a big wedding. Let's take 2 months off! We'll send postcards announcing the good news